Voice of Heart...: July 2009

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Grandpa passed away....

Last friday, I have taken half day leave to visit my grandpa which was sick serious in Unit ICU in Hospital Serdang. Mom and my aunt have decided to take my grandpa out from the hospital and let him stay in the house for his last moment. So I and my elder sister has taken half day leave to settle the proccedure in the hopsital to bring him go back to his home. We have call an ambulance to fetch grandpa back because grandpa was too weak and he still need the oxigen machine on the way going back. After I have done everything for him, after I reach home is already 10.00p.m. Grandpa has reach home around 10.30p.m. Mom and aunt have removed his oxigen machine while he reach home. After half and hour, grandpa has passed away. Whole family damn sad at that moment.

Another day was Saturday, all my aunt have arrived my grandpa house to discuss and prepare my grandpa's funeral matters. They have choose the 811 funeral package for him. We knew that grandpa want a grand funeral, so they tried to satify his wishes. I saw my grandmom was damn sad because grandpa was suddenly leave her alone. But I also know that she can be strong in the future.

At this Monday, is the last day of the funeral. Everybody have come and see my grandpa before he leaveing the house. We blessing for him, hope he can get a peaceful moment in the heaven. Around 1.00p.m. All funeral have been finished already. Our mood were so complicated. Nobody was feeling fresh, all was so tired because we can't sleep well in this few days.

I hope my grandpa don't worry about the family again. Goodbye, Grandpa......

Friday, July 24, 2009

爱情

爱情到底是什么？
目前为止一定没有人能够告诉你的！甚至连我自己都不知道。
但是我知道它的威力是无法想象的。有人为了它付出一切甚至是性命也在所不惜。
爱情可以分为好几种的。

有的是细水长流的，有的是激情万种的，有的是互相折磨的。。。

数不尽的种类，可是为的就只是爱。

有的人对爱是认真的，而有的人却是抱着玩的心态去维持一段感情。

我最看不起的就是这种人。他们无视别人的痛苦。

把自己的自私都给了最爱自己的人。

可是在我的生命里却出现过这样的人。

他把自己的快乐建筑在我的痛苦上。
让我痛不欲生。。。。

可是现在的我已经走出了那悲痛的过去。

我再好好地为将来努力。。。

我要让伤害我的人内疚一辈子。。。

不过我觉得他不会，应为没有心的认识不会有感觉的。

我现在很幸福，很快乐。。。

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

New style of "Love"

Just receive an email from my friend, it is regarding a pair of GAY from China Beijing. After i saw the photo of them, i didn't feel uncomfortable.

But I can feel there have such a deep love between them. Nowadays, still have a lot of people cannot accept this style of love - GAY. Why? Just because they said this is not natural. God make women and men together not man and man. But for me anything can happen in this new era. For example, a person can suddenly fall died in a government building without leaving any message. This is unreasonable, until now nobody can told us what is happening. That's why I say anything can happen. We don't know what will be happening by tomorow or even next minutes. The thing we can do is just follow our heart to do everything. What you think are right and didn't hurt anyone, you can just go ahead. So for me, i accept them and also respect them.

For me, they didn't much different with other normal couple. They look so sweet and romantic like other couple. They also have love and life between them. The big different is just the sex is not male and female and it become male and male only. Actually I am admire that kind of love. Because i know it need a lot of brave. They need to carry the stress from the family, friend and anybody around them. But i know when they choose this kind of love, they already have the preparation to facing everything. That's why i am so admire and appreciate them. I give the best wish for them.

Hope they find the one which really can give them happiness. And hope everyone also can live with love.